Mayer Hawthorne

Last night I went to see Mayer Hawthorne with Jeff and met up with Jamie. I not one to claim that i've been listening to him for a while, but i just discovered his music early December. The first track I heard was "Maybe So, Maybe No". I was hooked. I downloaded his album and the cd has been in my car since.

I was going into this concert with high expectations and let me tell you, he didn't disappoint. His live performance was fkn awesome. Everyone singing along and dancing to every song. This was pretty much my first "underground" concert. It wasn't the typical "mainstream" concert I was use to. This stuff was something different. The vibe was something I can't explain. This is a good thing. It was filled with great music and a great crowd. I will definitely be attending more concerts like this!


PS - I now hate the iPhone camera even more. =p

Such is life..

Days have turned into weeks and weeks will turn into months. It's not going to happen. There once was a little hope left, but that has all gone away. I use to want time to slow down when I was with you, but now, I just want it to fly. The faster time goes, the faster I get over this heartache. Well at least the stage of denial is over and done with. LOL. Such is life...

"But we loved with a love that was more than love..." - Edgar Allan Poe

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Another day. It is what it is. *sigh*

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Failblog

The downward spiral in my life has begun. Or maybe it has ended because I feel that I have hit rock bottom. Things just doesn't seem to get any better. I can think of a million cliches that fit the bill, but I won't go there. I really don't know where to go from here. It seems as if every path I have taken was never the right one. I'm not out of ideas, but I don't want to set myself up for failure. It's been happening way too often and it fucking hurts. Seriously, more than you could imagine. I pray every day that things would get better, and well... It hasn't! I know He has plans for me, but why must I go through such hardship? Why can't I be one of the lucky ones and have it easy? This is some fkn hard shit to deal with.

Acceptance - So Contagious

Back to nights....

After a little bit of contemplation, I've decided to return to the night shift. The morning shift has its perks. I'm done with work at 1:15pm and I have the rest of the day to do shit, but..... hearing the alarm go off at 3:30am is not my idea of fun. Especially on the Monday after Superbowl Sunday. The night shift gives me an extra $1.25/hr or $200/mon.... that's if I make my hours though. Techs have been leaving as early as 8pm when their shift ends at 930pm!!! Maybe I'll just go in a tad bit early like I use to. I doubt the new boss will say anything. =p

Lord knows I could use the extra cash flow. Especially with project 4runner in full swing. Getting rid of the Scion isn't gonna be easy, but I pray I can get rid of it. As soon as I get the 4runner in good running condition, then I'll work on selling the box. I'm hoping all it needs is a fuel pump. *fingers crossed*


Cake - Love You Madly

Sunday

Damn you Colts. Dropped some dollahs on you and you failed me. Boo! Oh well. It's only money. =p I got to watch the game with the Chuns again this year. 3 years straight. It was an awesome time as usual. Beers, good food, and great company. Just this year was different. She wasn't there. I wouldn't have went if she was. Kinda awkward that it's her best friends house. LOL. I doubt I will go again next year. It really doesn't make things easier that we have the same circle of friends. If she goes, then I don't go. I'm sorry that it has to be that way, but it really does. Well, for me at least. I really wouldn't know how to act. Uggggh!

Anberlin - Breaking. I've had their cd in my car for months now. Just on repeat. They are awesome!

Today was a good day. Work went pretty well. I'm actually starting to get use to our new manager. He seems ok. Strictly by the book, but nothing wrong with that. I came home and just rested for a bit before heading out to Bar 35 to have a few New Castles with some kick ass friends.

Jamie actually stopped by for a bit. It was nice to chat and catch up with her. We talked for a while before she had to go. I really miss hanging out with her. She's pretty rad.

I try really hard to keep myself busy. Workout, read, do whatever it takes to take my mind off of her. But, honestly, it's impossible. Everything I do, everything I see, just triggers something in my head and it always comes back to her. I fkn miss everything about her. I want to be better! =/

Don't ask my why I listen to this crap. Shoot me now!

High Def

I find it so funny that all my friends like to come to me for home theater advice. I'm fkn geeky like that i guess. High Def, home theater shit is my 2nd love next to photography. Give me a Panasonic or Pioneer plasma hooked up to a ps3, onkyo or denon receiver, with B&W or Klipsch speakers, I would never leave home. The funny thing about this is that i don't own any high def shit. well, a ps3, but that's hooked up to a 10yr old 32" ghetto tv. whatevah!

Slippin

With so much going on in my life right now, I'm slippin on my project 52.

I was in Cali for 9 days and it literally stormed the whole time I was there. My camera wasn't even unpacked. lol. It was still a great vacation. I got to kick it with some great fuckin people. I'm so blessed to have such supportive people in my life.

On Monday, I did the Lanikai trail alone. It's a short hike, but I'm fat and out of shape, so it wasn't as easy as it use to be. =p So here it is...

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